Thursday, July 30, 2015

Whooping Cough is the WORST please don't be stupid

I thought I had a cold.

That's how it started out, anyway. I was sore all over and could hardly breathe, and I was coughing a lot, but I decided to go to work anyway. I made it through a couple days, but instead of getting better, I was getting worse. But it was almost the end of the week, right? It was Thursday!

By a few hours into the work day, I asked my friend, who I had carpooled to work with, to take me home during the lunch break because I was feeling so awful.

The whole not being able to breathe thing was a key factor. It's hard to do, you know, ANYTHING AT ALL when you can't put oxygen in your lungs.

So I curled up into a ball and let my friend drive me home, and then I curled up under a blanket and called the doctor to make an appointment. All the while, I was coughing, but I still didn't think anything of it.

It was only a couple hours between coming home and going to the doctor, but it might as well have been days for how long it felt. My throat was on fire, and not because it was sore or anything but because I was coughing so hard that it hurt my every muscle. My chest felt like someone had hit me with a car, and when I coughed, I was acutely aware of my ribs. And how suddenly fragile they felt.

I went to the doctor and sat in a room for ten minutes while he finished up with his previous patients. He came in and told me that he had been able to hear me coughing from the next room and he knew exactly what the problem was. I had whooping cough.

I was surprised. I was up to date on all my vaccinations, wasn't I? So this shouldn't have been a problem, right? 

Haha. Ha. Yeah.

Turns out, I lived in an area with a very low vaccination rate, and while I had been up to date when I was a kid, recent research shows the whooping cough vaccine in particular should really be updated every decade or so. So, no, I wasn't safe, and the people around me weren't safe, and turns out there were lots of other people getting sick, too.

Unfortunately, I'd been putting off the doctor visit because I couldn't afford to take a day off of work. I was paid hourly, and I was trying to put my husband through school. Which meant my case of whooping cough was well into its progression by the time I finally showed my face in that office, so they couldn't do much besides help keep me from coughing up a lung (which, by the way, was a real possibility).

I came back with some medicines to help clear up the infection itself, but in the meantime, I had nothing to protect me from the coughing fits.

But I, being pig-headed as I am, decided that I wasn't going to let this stop me from doing things. I dressed up in my warmest, most comfortable hoodie and settled down in front of the sink to wash some dishes to put in the dishwasher.

That's when the wave of coughing hit. I doubled over, gasping for air, but I couldn't stop coughing. I felt my knees hit the floor, and I saw the corners of my vision turn black, and I still couldn't stop. It's not something that you can control, the coughing, and I don't really remember much of the rest of that coughing fit other than clinging on to what little breath I could gasp in when the spasms stopped.

Next thing I knew, I was slumped over on the kitchen floor staring at a pool of my own saliva and phlegm that I had coughed up, well aware that I was lucky to still be conscious.

This continued for days. And even for days after that, I was still coughing, still sore. It took days after that before I could even really take a full breath without feeling like my chest was fighting me. And over a year later, I still get nervous every time I cough, and my chest still hurts with the memory if I have a coughing fit that lasts more than five coughs.

Mind you, I was 21 when this happened. I was a 21-year-old, full-grown woman with a healthy set of lungs and a husband who had the sense to keep me away from things that I could crash into if I ever fell over from coughing. I can't even IMAGINE what this disease would have done to me if I had been younger, or if I had health problems or lung problems like asthma. Can you imagine if I had been a baby? I nearly blacked out with a fully developed set of lungs; a coughing attack like that could have KILLED me if I was younger.

So please, tell me more about how vaccines are part of a larger conspiracy to kill people. That's very interesting. You just stay the heck away from me, though, and I'll stay here in my corner not getting sick again, thanks.

Wednesday, July 22, 2015

On "Gritty Realism" in Superhero Movies

I don't watch movies because they're realistic. I watch them because they're not reality.

I don't read books because they're realistic. I read them because they're not reality.

So why, oh why, is the current craze in Hollywood "gritty realism" when it come to things like superheroes? (Looking at you, DC.) I can understand stories that are supposed to take place in our world being gritty, or apocalyptic movies, or horror movies, or whatever else, but superheroes?

Look, maybe I'm not the right person to be talking about this. Maybe I'm biased.

It was, after all, superheroes that saved my life.

At a time in my life when I was struggling with depression before I truly understood what that meant, I discovered a community of people who loved superhero cartoons, who would spend hours with me in chat rooms as we gushed over every little detail of a hero's backstory. One of those friends would go on to become a pen pal who I credit with keeping me sane and keeping me from sinking into the pits of wanting to end it all. 

So maybe I'm biased. Maybe I don't want the very characters that gave me hope to be tarnished by reality. That was what saved me, after all: they were very much not reality. They were the reality I wanted to work for.

That's the thing, I think. I don't want gritty realism because I want hope. I don't want Superman to kill anybody, because that makes him not Superman. I don't want to leave the movie theater drowning in an existential crisis. I want to leave feeling that I can do anything and that one day I might make a difference the way these heroes do, just in my own, less superheroic way.

I don't know. Maybe I'm old-fashioned. Maybe I'm biased.

But I just kind of think that it's much better and healthier to have heroes than to tear them down to make them more like us instead.

Friday, July 3, 2015

Yes, I Am Still Infertile. No, You Still Don't Get It.

Imagine you could never have children.

I'm not saying imagine you never CHOSE to have children.

I'm saying: Imagine that choice has been taken from you. No matter what you want, you can never have children of your own.

You can't.

You can't imagine this.

You can't understand it.

I wrote that opening sentence, and you read it, and you felt pity. You tried for empathy. But your head couldn't quite grasp it, not unless you're in the same boat as me.

So you give me a hug, and you say it's fine, and you move on in your world where this isn't your reality.

Your every. Single. Day. Reality.

It doesn't matter what other things you occupy your time with, either, because it's everywhere. You go on Facebook, and everyone posts about their kids. That's good. Parents are supposed to be involved in their kids' lives, and they're supposed to show their support, and they're supposed to be excited about such an amazing blessing in their lives, so how can you possibly ask them to stop?

You can't. So you scroll quickly past and try to ignore the fact that your stomach is churning and your eyes are burning with tears that you don't want to shed just because your friend posted a picture of Johnny's First Steps.

You turn on the TV, and there's no women like you on the screen. They can have kids at the drop of a dime, as the plot demands it, and it usually only takes them one try. Or one accident. The women that ARE like you are played for drama. For angst. And the ones that are played too well drive you to tears, but those are the ones done by indie shows who take the time to care. The women like you whose condition makes them "monsters" or somehow incapable of being kind or caring are the ones in the summer blockbusters.

You listen to the news, and everywhere there are stories of children being taken from parents who are abusive, awful, neglectful. And you want to scream at the injustice of it all.

You visit with family, and well-meaning relatives ask when you'll provide them with grandkids or grand-nieces and -nephews. They push you harder, practically begging for an exact countdown when you tell them you're trying to adopt. They don't believe you when you say it's more difficult than they realize, because how can it be? You're getting a child, aren't you? So what makes this way so emotionally difficult for you?

They don't believe you when you dare to open up about your terror that you'll never be able to forget the fact that this child isn't yours, even though it's clearly and very definitely yours. They don't believe you when you say you're scared you'll treat your baby differently than "real" parents do. They tell you those fears are irrational.

Of course they are. They're irrational fears. But knowing they're irrational does nothing to silence them.

And then, you go to church.

That's the worst part.

You skip church on Mother's Day, because how can you possibly listen to three hours of people talking about the importance of motherhood and how it's the highest calling you can ever have?

Of course it is. It's the highest calling you can be called to, because you are creating and caring for a human being.

Please stop reminding me of that. I know it's true. That makes it worse.

Even when it's not Mother's Day, though, there are church lessons that leave you in tears.

You go to Relief Society, and all the women there have come to give lessons about how to raise kids. How to teach kids the Gospel. How to be a better mother.

You listen to the talks given by church leaders about the importance of family, how God called us to this noble pursuit, how there is nothing more important (not jobs, not church service, not anything) than emulating God the Father in the supreme act of creating life and nurturing that spirit.

That's beautiful. I truly believe that's beautiful.

It also hurts.

And it's everywhere.

Not a single day goes by when you don't see something that triggers that sense of emptiness inside you. Magazines obsessed with celebrity pregnancies. Families obsessed with the next grandchild. Friends who are on Child Number You've Lost Count and whose response to your situation is "Oh, just you wait. It's amazing!"

Yeah, thanks for that.

And now that I've described what it's like to be like me, to be unable to ever have kids and yet to be surrounded by a culture that worships parenthood and calls sterile women "monsters," you still don't get it.

You don't notice the water, because you've grown gills.

So let me put it another way.

Imagine that you believe that the most important thing in the world is creating an ice cream sundae.

Your whole life, you've been dreaming of the time when you will meet that special someone who has the ice cream ingredients, and you have the ice cream maker. You just can't wait to taste that amazing, homemade ice cream, because all your life, adults have been telling you how great it tastes, how much fun it is. And yeah, sometimes the ice cream is sticky or a little lumpy, but every ice cream sundae is different, unique, and worth it.

So you meet your special someone, and you are ready. You're gonna have some ice cream, and it's going to be amazing.

Then you find our your ice cream maker is broken.

And while the world crumbles around you as you struggle to find your new place in a world that keeps telling you that the greatest happiness you can possibly achieve is out of your reach, everyone else is eating their ice cream.

They're posting pictures of ice cream. They're even posting pictures of the sugar cones and the toppings as they prepare for the finished ice cream sundae.

Everyone's always asking "Oh, have you tried the ice cream yet?"

"When are you gonna eat ice cream?"

"Have you seen a mechanic about your ice cream maker?"

(Yes. Yes, you have. And not only did the mechanic's attempts to help not work but anything beyond that would mean a complete overhaul that you can't afford.)

"Well, what about the store-bought stuff?"

That one catches your attention. There's ice cream that someone else made that you can eat! It's so exciting!

Only there's a catch. You have to be able to afford it, and even then, you have to wait in line.

So you save up your pennies to go to the ice cream parlor. And the line is out the door. And all the time you're waiting in line, your friends are still calling you to talk to you about ice cream. Your church meetings are still about ice cream. Your movies and television and books are still about ice cream.

You finally get to the counter and order your ice cream and wait while they make your order. Only sometimes the person behind the counter decides that they want to keep the ice cream for themselves. Or they might give you the ice cream, let you take a lick, and then take it back.

And then you finally have the ice cream in your hands, and it's delicious (I'm assuming that's the case; I haven't yet gotten to this part of my own ice cream story).

Only now you've got people criticizing you. Because what if you get pistachio ice cream? Or, heaven forbid, strawberry? Your ice cream looks nothing like the ice cream on the ice cream machine box you got!

And you can't afford to do much with other people when they go out with their ice cream, because you have to save up for the next ice cream sundae, the one that's several orders of magnitude more expensive than the homemade kind, while other people are home with their homemade ice cream, sometimes making more than they can eat, sometimes destroying their ice creams without even eating them.

And the whole thing starts all over again.

"When are you going to have your second sundae?"

"You should get cookies and cream next time!"

"Have you thought about when you're going to tell your ice cream that you got it from an ice cream parlor?"

It never ends.

Now that you've read this, you probably want ice cream.

Good.

Now, imagine that you can never have any.

Ah, you can imagine that feeling, can't you?

Good.

Now, multiply that feeling times a thousand.

And you're close to understanding me.

Monday, June 1, 2015

Another Shameless Plug

So, storytime.

In the collaboration I'm working on, we actually had a couple writers drop out because of personal reasons, and that left us with a rather important part of the story to fill. We had divided up the personal training assessments for the tributes into three chapters, each done by a different writer, and Districts 9-12 no longer had anyone to write their story.

Well, rather than have one person get to have the spotlight on their character twice, one of the leaders of our little team of writers asked me if I'd be willing to co-write the chapter with her, since I'd already written a side story (one-shot) talking about what Kate did for her assessment. 

Flash forward to last week, when that went live and I no longer had to keep it secret, so I can share it with you! 

I'll also share with you the chapter I did for Kate's actually assigned POV in the Capitol as well as a sneak peek at each.

Kate's Capitol Chapter: Getting to Grips
The trainer, Danielle Moonstar, said something that sounded like "how to hold the bow," but Kate didn't need hand-holding.

She raised the bow to aim it when a new voice interrupted her: "Katie, right?"

Kate frowned and turned. She hated being called "Katie," and not even America could get away with calling her that. "Princess" and "honey" and other ridiculous names she'd answer to, sure, but "Katie" was what Dad called her when he was talking down to her, and she hated it. "It's Kate," she said, crossing her arms.

It was that kid, the one who was District partners with the redhead. Kate couldn't remember his name, but he was a Career. He seemed to be all smiles, though, and he had a bow of his own. His own targets were filled with arrows, all really close but not quite perfect. But they made a cool little lightning design instead of being dead-center, so Kate though he might have been holding back until the Games. Kid stole her idea.

"You're a decent shot," she said, nodding at the training dummies. 

"Are you?" he asked. He leaned casually against the nearest wall, eyeing her up and down.

"I'd say no, but then I'd be lying," Kate said with a grim smile. He was too nice, too smiley. What did he want?

He laughed. "Name's Clint," he said.

"I remember," she said, which was a lie.

"Uh-huh," he looked amused, and Kate wasn't sure she liked that look. "Okay, Katie, I'll go first."

"I pick the target, though," she said, the idea coming to her so suddenly that there was really no use trying to stop it from tumbling out of her mouth.

Clint paused for only a second before the grin split his face. "You're on."

Kate and Storm's Capitol Chapter: Can You See Me Now?

And then they called for her.

She felt her feet hit the floor, though she was not aware that she ever made the conscious decision to move.
And then she was back in the training room. Stations were set up all around her, and there was a large room, a seating area for the Gamemakers.

Kate beamed at them, waving enthusiastically. She was running out of beaming smiles in her supply, but when the adrenaline kicked in, that was all she could remember to do — smile and wave.

She probably did that for too long. One of the Gamemakers even sort of smiled back, his hand moving like he might wave back out of pity.

That was not good. She didn't need pity.

She forced her mind back to reality. She could see already that she was losing their interest. She'd get a zero — was it possible to get a zero? She was pretty sure it wasn't, but then, maybe...

She grabbed the staffs and twirled them over her head, losing her fear in the motions, going through a few dummies, testing out her strength, throwing in a few unnecessary twirls...

When she looked back in the room, she noticed that there were almost no eyes on her.

Screw it.

She dropped the staffs with a loud clang. Didn't even bother to pick them back up, just left them there.

Tuesday, May 26, 2015

When You're in a Funk, Write Something New

That's advice I've gotten for a long time. If you don't want to write what you're working on, for whatever reason (my reason is probably mostly that, holy cow I've been working on this story for years and this is like rewrite number I've-lost-track), find something new to bring the sparkle and fun back to writing.

So I'm thinking about resurrecting an old story that I enjoyed writing but didn't like the way the plot was going.

I'm going to rework it so that it's more fun.

Basically, the premise is this: Every generation has a set of twins that are basically like the Chosen Ones of their generation. One is good at magic, healing, and diplomacy. The other is a warrior and is brave and chivalrous. 

And with my set of twins, people tend to assume that Lenora is the magic/healer person while Jonathon is the warrior, but it's actually the opposite.

But here's where it gets interesting.

It doesn't really matter who's good at what, because Lenora and Jonathon have figured out their own unique skill: they can switch bodies whenever they please. So if someone wants to challenge Jonathon to a duel, Lenora steps in for him. Same with when people come to Lenora for advice.

Only the problem is, Jonathon gets captured by the bad guy because they think he's the warrior and therefore the more dangerous one. 

Cue emotional family issues.

Yeah, I really like this premise; it's just the writing of it that's giving me fits.

Monday, May 11, 2015

Life Update

Just to let you know a little bit of the reason I've been incommunicado lately.

My uncle died on April 30th. We got the call exactly one week before that saying he was in the hospital, and then it was an emotional week of waiting, praying, and trying to find peace and acceptance. 

We had the funeral a week ago today, and that was probably one of the weirder experiences of my life. I've never experienced a death in the family before, and I always figured it would be one of my grandparents or someone older. Not the uncle who is the same age as my mom.

I've been trying to come to terms with what we experienced, and I took all of last week off of all but the most crucial projects (y'know, the ones I get paid by the hour to do and that help to pay the bills) so that I could calm my mind.

I think I'm still a little shaken, quite honestly, but maybe, just maybe, I can find a new normal.

Tuesday, April 14, 2015

Shamless Plug

(originally posted this on my writing blog but thought, yeah, I should post it here too)

So, as some of you know, I've been involved in writing fanfiction on the side since I was about thirteen. Kid you not; picture little pre-teen, angsty me writing about the Teen Titans. 

It was the best, though, because I was able to connect with other writers, and some of them who were older and better at writing were able to tuck me under their wings and help me improve. Y'know, teaching me things like how to not overuse adverbs (still a problem for me) and how to avoid passive voice (getting better) and how to do dialogue properly (this one I've actually got pretty well in hand, though I could always improve).

During my later years of high school and much of college, I sort of stopped writing it, though. I tried a little in my freshman year of college, and I have to say that the story I started was actually pretty good, but I never did finish it because I got sucked into the whole graduating on time and actually doing something with my life thing, you know?

Anyway, flash forward a few years. During my senior year of college, I had started back into writing fanfiction while I was working on other book projects because it was a good outlet for my creative juices when I hit writer's block for things. Then, it started to become a bigger part of my life, until I was writing huge stories that had hundreds of followers.

It was crazy. Still is.

Anyway, I guess I got on someone's radar, because towards the end of the year last year, I got a message asking me if I'd like to do a collaboration. 

"Sure!" I said, because I love to connect with other writers and to learn from their writing and to improve my own with their critiques.

Flash forward to now, when the collaboration is well under way. It's a huge project, encompassing 24 authors. Each of us is doing our own character, and we're doing a 24 author/24 tributes project in which we take Marvel characters (Avengers, X-Men, etc.) and put them in the Hunger Games universe. Each author gets to write a tribute and their stylist/mentor/friends back in the district/etc.

I'm Kate Bishop, of District 12, and last week, my Reaping chapter finally went up.

So, I thought I'd share it with y'all, because even though I'm not getting paid to do it, even though a lot of people will say it's not "real" literature/writing/whatever, I have put my heart and soul into this project, and I have already learned so much and gained so much in writing experience that I will be forever grateful to be part of this project.

Anyway, you can read my chapter here, though you're welcome to just go ahead and read the whole thing because it's just that good.

Monday, April 6, 2015

General Conference April 2014

So, twice a year, we as members of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints get together so that we can hear our leaders and prophets speak.

It's really pretty cool.

Here are some of the highlights from this year's conference (at least in my opinion):

1. Women's Conference

I liked that this year, the focus was on families "no matter what your marital or parental status." That phrase was spoken several times during the session, and because this was my first Women's Conference since finding out my husband and I can't have kids, it was really comforting to me. I was terrified of going to Women's Conference and having to sit through ten talks about the importance of motherhood, but instead, I received a message of love and welcoming despite the fact that I have so far been denied that highest calling in life.

2. President Uchtdorf is a Rock Star

No, but seriously, he is. First of all, during the Saturday afternoon session, we all sustain the prophet as the leader of our church and as a prophet, seer, and revelator. But for some reason, this year, some people showed up, I guess to make a political statement, and emphatically shouted "no" when President Uchtdorf, who was conducting, asked if there were "any opposed" to the prophet.

Like??? Okay. Whatever. You go on doing your thing; I can't get in the way of your agency. But like, I'm pretty sure when you decide to vocally diss the prophet you get swallowed up by the ground. At least that's how it worked in the Old Testament. . . .

But President Uchtdorf, because he is amazing, took the whole thing in stride: "The vote is noted."

And THEN on Sunday, after we'd just had the chance to hear a speaker get to talk in his native Spanish (up until recently, all the talks have been in English), he got up there and started talking in German and then was like "Oh, sorry." Like, no, President Uchtdorf, we totally know you did that on purpose. You lovable scalawag.

3. Get Your House in Order

That seemed to be the running theme, at least for me. I know there were a lot of talks on family, yeah, but for me, it seemed like there was an underlying message of working to make sure we knew what our priorities are. Are our priorities on things that are "good" or things that are "essential?" 

I know I'm guilty of this, often focusing on my latest writing projects or fanfiction and getting so engrossed that my last thought before I go to sleep is of that project and my first thought when I wake up is still in that zone. Instead of "making time" for Christ, I should be thinking about Him all the time and "making space" for other, less essential things only after I've got the rest of it sorted.

Anyway, those are just some of my thoughts from conference.

Wednesday, April 1, 2015

I Vlog Now. Vlogging is Cool.

In this video, I tell a ridiculous story and do a lot of talking with my hands.

I Trapped a Wasp in Tupperware

Sunday, March 29, 2015

Monday, March 9, 2015

Random Thoughts

Sometimes, I have poetic, writer-y thoughts but they don't really go with a specific book or project. I write them down so I can maybe use them later, but I thought maybe you'd be interested in a peek inside my (admittedly very weird) head:

Have you ever seen a ghost? I’m not talking about the supernatural kind of ghost—the kind where people who have died linger here. I’m talking about the walking, talking, breathing dead. People whose hearts have stopped but who keep on living, because the rest of their bodies are determined to keep working.

The green of Georgia is a warm, earthy green. The green in Washington is formidable and majestic.

It’s little wonder the people in Texas make everything big. I’d try to carve out a piece of that infinite skyline too, just to feel a little less small against the endless stretch.

Monday, March 2, 2015

American vs. British English Summary

Earlier, I was chatting with some of the people I'm working with on a collaboration (see this post here for a more detailed discussion of how much this collaboration is the best thing ever) and the guy running the whole show had mentioned he needed to Anglicize the language.

Which prompted one writer to ask what the differences were.

Yeah, I jumped on that so fast.

Here's what I said. I was just remembering this today, and it tickled me, so I figured I'd share it here:

American English decided extra letters were stupid. Basically, we think we're too cool to take alllll that extra time writing "colour" instead of "color."

We also decided Z was a much-maligned letter and started to use that in place of "s" in cases like "baptise" vs "baptize."

Not to mention all of the rearranging we decided to do because "re" is weird? Like who says "theatre" when clearly you pronounce it "theater?"

But then we got super inconsistent and decided to add letters?? at the end?? of past-tense words??? Because clearly "dreamt" is not as cool as "dreamed."

In our even weirder past tenses, we decided things like lit and spit are already past tense on their own except in special cases when clearly "spat" and "lighted" follow our nonexistent English patterns.

Also, we decided to do away with things like "shan't" because why the heck not?
Not to mention we got rid of all those pesky "to do" bits as pro-predicates. ("He must have" instead of "He must have done.")

But then we started adding in articles where there weren't any before ("in hospital" verses "in the hospital.")

And I could go on and on, but I'm sure I lost those who didn't minor in editing and take countless classes on variations of English at "pro predicate."

Wednesday, February 25, 2015

Looking Back

I know I made a post earlier about looking back on things that I wrote years ago and wincing, but let me take a moment to talk about the bright side of taking another look at your work.

So, story time. (There's always a story, isn't there?)

Right now, we're living in my parent's guest room. It's a little bit cramped and a lot not-at-all-private, but it's nice being with my family and having no rent to pay so that we can afford to buy our condo in just three weeks.

*sidenote: Three weeks. Oh gosh.

Anyway, point is, this means I have access to the desktop that has literally lived in our house since I was in middle school.

This is where teenage me wrote fanfiction and made music videos.

Needless to say, it is a treasure trove of awful awesomeness.

But it was interesting, because rewatching all of the music videos that I'd made was nostalgic. It was fun. I could go through and point out parts where I could say, "Oh, look, here I was experimenting with faster clips." Or "Here I was experimenting with transitions."

It was documentation of my learning process.

And then I realized: Why don't I do that with my writing?

Why don't I look back on my writing from years ago and say things like, "Oh, look, here I am discovering dialogue tags" or "Here I am discovering pacing" or "Here I am discovering how not to overload my readers with emotions" or "Here I am in my super-fast-paced phase"?

I'm going to make a conscious effort from now on to view my writing that way. Not as an embarrassment but a measure of how much I've grown . . . and what I learned on the journey. 

Wednesday, February 18, 2015

Fresh Eyes

It's so, so, so important to get someone else to read your stuff.

I don't think I have enough "so"s there. 

I'm absolutely serious, though. You need someone to read your stuff. 

You need someone to buoy you up when you think your writing has gone off the deep end and it's so awful and I can't believe how dramatic my internal monologing sounds.

You need someone to sit you down and tell you that your writing isn't as great as you think it is and by the way your main character isn't nearly as interesting as your minor characters, so you should fix that.

Sometimes, the same person can do both of those things.

Other times, it's you that has to be the voice of reason and draw your improvements from sideways comments. Y'know, like noticing that all the compliments are for one character and not the other.

Point being, Michael's about to get a huge upgrade. He apparently needs more . . . pizzazz.

Thursday, February 12, 2015

Being a Home Owner

It's really, really weird to go from being a college kid to being the wife of a student to being a home owner (AKA an adult).

Yeah, totally not ready to be an adult. Nuh-uh.

But when you start looking at the housing prices in Georgia, and you realize that, hey, if we can get enough money for a down payment, we could pay less per month and own rather than rent . . . yeah, that's when you start doing crazy things like getting a realtor and talking to a banker and oh my gosh make it stop I want to be five, not fifty!

Anyway, Matt and I started out looking for places to rent when I casually mentioned the idea of buying to my mother.And I swear, this woman has a friend for every occasion, because as soon as I brought it up, she had a realtor friend of hers on the phone, and the next thing I know, I'm talking over my finances with a guy whose last name, I kid you not, is Stark.

Yes, Mister Stark did my finanaces. And if you don't think I made a hundred Tony Stark and His Money references, then you do not know me well enough.

Next thing I know, we're approved for a loan, and I'm looking at places to live. No houses (at least none in the area we wanted to live), but we found some nice condos and townhouses. And literally, the very first one that we went to, we fell in love with. 

We went back the next day to show Matt (we being, in this case, me and my mom), he loved it, we sent out an offer, and now I'm sitting on my bed with a million manilla folders sorting financial data and all kinds of crazy bank balancing stuff because we're getting a mortgage.

On the one hand, I'm super excited, because this means I can paint all over the place and fix everything up just the way I want it to be.

On the other hand: Who let me adult??